Savage Love Poetry

 Give Me Love It is not something I long for I tell this to myself every night This mantra and vow, I have kept Resolute and unwavering, I would hold out I live and breathe as the rest without it And so, I do not need it.   Yes, my nights are lonely and sometimes sad I dive into fantasy and drown out my thoughts in fiction I live out hours and even years in the shoes of my favourite characters I bring them to life in my mind and bask in the love they feel for each other Even if for a moment, to me, It is real. If fantasy and fiction can give it to me That is enough. In reality, I do not need it.   And yet the feeling of warmth, comfort, and belonging that I desire persists It gnaws at me just before I sleep It runs rampant in my mind and rampages through my heart I feel the absence of the very thing I wish to deny It is a void, deep and immeasurable. It does not look back It establishes its presence and dominance even as I am without it The s

I’ve been hankering, I’ve been lacking  I’ve been trying to mask needing you  With every puff, every sip, every body I’ve been trying not to carry the weight of the world It only awakened me to deeper truths  Seeing it all and never doing anything  Endeavoring to shed light, trying constantly. We knew the world, we understood it. I wanted to build a fortress for us I wanted to build my life around you. But that obstacle tore us apart  I fell in your absence I fell into the universe and lost myself in spirituality The more I tried to run away from my destiny  The more I tried to fight being in the present  It only awakened me to deeper truths My higher self, my soul spoke to me. It revealed many but one, one was constant that I need you, that I needed my anchor  I’ve been through so much pain  With life turbulences and storms  These growing pains, these aches  They made me fight my true nature  Not to deny any aspects of me  But I love living in balance I love it when my ocean is calm 

 Keep the illusion up, let them see purpose. I know you're just there existing. As long as you're breathing, keep that heart beating It don't matter if the muscles on your face won't stretch right It don't matter that your smile is not the same anymore Keep at it, don't give up. Struggle a bit longer You're not dead yet. They see you breathing. They can feel your heart beat. Cold as it is. They can feel your heat, you're not dead. Keep at it just a little bit longer Maybe there's a silver lining just around the corner In this round existence, there's a silver lining just around the corner. Even if you're just surving now, that's all that matters. They are all that matter so live. Live for them, if not for yourself. Love for them, if not for yourself. Do it all for them Maybe you'll find your own in the midst of it all.

 Walk a little slower, there's no rush. You ain't got anywhere to be, slow down. You know there isn't anyone waiting on you, You'll be dancing by yourself anyway, like always. But atleast you won't have to pretend anymore, You can finally let go and lose yourself. The four hours of sleep you'll get are enough to collect the pieces. Just enough to keep a smile on your face. The dark circles are almost invisible when you smile, Who cares if it won't reach your eyes, no one really notices anyway. So take the long way home, keep reality at bay. Just a little longer, fool the world a little longer, Lose yourself in the lie just a bit longer. No harm done. Walk a little slower, there's no rush. You ain't got nowhere to be, you might as well get lost.

 There's little to no words to describe you. To describe the strength you carry without boasting , To describe the power you possess without pride. Always with humbling humility you serve without asking. You are the embodiment of phenomenal and grace. Your selflessness is without bounds, it sometimes drives me mad, And yet it is your most beautiful quality and it humbles me still. The smile you wear on your face through tribulation and truimph is flawless, True in every essence of the word and it shines through without fault. The grandness of your heart fills me with tears of joyful pride, It holds so much love, care, kindness and genuine affection, It's a wonder you aren't glowing. All these words I've written will never be enough to express my truest emotions Because there's little to no words to describe you. You are mother, precious and beautiful. I love you wholeheartedly and without doubt.

Truth is you're always on my mind. I haven't gotten over you, not even close. I still stretch out my arm reaching for you at night. I wake up with the taste of your name on my lips. At the most random times I feel the ghost of your touch on my hips. I smile and turn my head, but you aren't there anymore, You're just a memory, a dream turned into a nightmare A neverending nightmare filled with laughter and joy. You haunt me with your absence and taunt me with your presence. So close, yet ever so far out of reach. My reach. Seeing you happy tears me apart and brings me joy, It's all I ever wanted for you, but with me. Only with me. I still wonder where it all came apart, when did I lose you? I don't remember looking at you and not drowning in love, I thought you'd always be there to keep me afloat and weather this sea of love. But now you're no longer mine, you're the wind to his sails. You glide through these torturous waters and I dro