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A tenacious bond

I may have no rhyme But I've got rhythm to spare And it keeps my soul sublime It makes want to clap my hands with flare So when you see me sway my hips And ever so gallantly tap my feet Whilst taking passionate cognac sips Listening to Bruno's greatest hit That's just my Tenacious Bond with music. It keeps me up at night Dares my soul to lay itself bare Uncovering my deepest blight Seducing my volatile eyes With its forever brilliant glare I allow it to swallow me whole And spit me out ravaged and raw Ready to heal and try again That's my connection with my music It brightens my darkest days Painting pictures of orange skies Illuminating the beautiful green of life Drawing rare memories of independent happiness Momentarily erasing all that's sad and blue And for that one moment, all is well Life is full of wonders and joy Music is my sanctuary By: Ayabonga Xulu This is subject to copyright and is not to be shared or duplicated  in any

Somebody must have lied

God doesn't love me, if he did than somebody must have lied, Somebody must have not known me, But didn't like me. Didn't understand my kind of love and built a conspiracy that would chain me to the very dirt, Cast me out of society as a contamination. A disease that would have to be cured, with laid hands and incantations. It was at the age of nine that i felt, every season change Fell along with every leaf, dying and losing my essence each day. Somebody must have lied A present day reflection of me, looking at the Ghost child ebbing, and fading praying on his knees, praying on hands bleeding on the bathroom floor,  lava seeping through my eyes a cold river of breaking waves yearning for normativity, for something i didn't understand. I was stuck in a kingdom where nobody died A kingdom that was stolen from me, Ridiculed and tormented thinking, constantly thinking  Somebody must have lied Somebody must have n

Apocalypse on love

There’s an apocalypse on love A raging war, casualties dying Love is on his death bed and Nobody cares Love is dripping wet with blood and scars And nobody cares   love is fading away, u sed over heart emoji’s,  smiley heart eyes,  love is being poured into nothing,  A cover up  for meaningless sex,  A hit and run for some healing. That’s the only time they actually met it wasn't to connect the mind and soul She gave up a part of her being and body,   over nothing  but  A text message of hearts and kisses, words and promises,  a  snappy caption  and a status update. gave it up on some face time, not actual time not over a face to face dinner conversation   a stimulating interaction that awakens more than just his sexual interest. but his mind and soul,  She and he didn't know communication is the spell behind the magic she doesn't know love and the scripture of what lies between her thighs.   they're both rushing into it. And so love continu

I Cannot Take You Back

Just because I said I miss you Just because I said my heart still bleeds for yours And my soul bleats  and aches for your tender embrace still Even as my lips still feel the tender touch of yours And my body remembers your warming touch as though it still feels it Doesn't mean I'll take you back Even as I still dream of a future filled with blissful happiness with you And I can't help but gasp and hold my breath at your presence Betrayed repeatedly by my heart as my mind bends its will the other way Pushed and guided by pride and memory I stand my ground and deny myself I still love you my dashing ebony charm But I cannot take you  back Tears wet my pillows and stained the earth Disappointments and lies clouded my trust for you Hope for your redemption kept me by your side Perfect as a protege's sonata was a symphony my heart played at the promise of glorious matrimony But beneath all the desire and denial I knew it was all fable fabrication We were

No strings attached

You wanted something liquid something you couldn't grasp something that was loose and untamed So I chose to Burn, I became a flame that you couldn't control and so you were consumed by it. You fell inlove, looked at me and saw a billion of stars Your touch changed, you were no longer lost You were claiming your territory you wanted to pour me into a jar of water pull me into your arms Chain me up and call me your own. You said no strings attached, so I burnt to protect my sanity You wanted something liquid I burnt to feed my body of what's it's been missing i bunt each and every string but now you want my flames tamed so the strings can emerge. You said you wanted something liquid I see you didn't like my eyes wandering You saw my heart wandering You saw that I was open not closed to you looking for solid rock to call home because you wanted a rental You wanted rental Yes let me remind you You wanted something liqui

Falling for pain

Bless my tortured soul, it knows the truth. It's been down this path before, It knows the symptoms, it knows to run. But it can't, it's feet are too heavy The mud of promise and hope is too thick Trying to escape too painful But sinking is so much worse, yet it's prefarable Curse my deluded heart, it craves affection. Resurrected from the deepest grave Having known the blackest darkness It cannot forget the brightest light It overlooks the anguish and gore, it is expected It caresses the impending doom, lulling it to sleep It falls helplessly, unwillingly so. It accepts. Deliver my screaming mind, it begs for logic. Having seen it all, it speaks for reason Swimming in a sea of confusion, it screams It cannot comprehend the selfish desire for affection It sees the pain behind the promise The desert beneath the ocean of love It laments for emotional salvation It demands sanity and logic It is denied. It can only witness. It le