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Somebody must have lied

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God doesn't love me,
if he did than somebody must have lied,
Somebody must have not known me,
But didn't like me.
Didn't understand my kind of love
and built a conspiracy that would chain me
to the very dirt,
Cast me out of society as a contamination.
A disease that would have to be cured,
with laid hands and incantations.

It was at the age of nine that i felt,
every season change
Fell along with every leaf, dying and
losing my essence each day.
Somebody must have lied
A present day reflection of me,
looking at the Ghost child ebbing, and fading
praying on his knees, praying on hands
bleeding on the bathroom floor, 
lava seeping through my eyes
a cold river of breaking waves
yearning for normativity,
for something i didn't understand.

I was stuck in a kingdom where nobody died
A kingdom that was stolen from me,
Ridiculed and tormented
thinking, constantly thinking 
Somebody must have lied
Somebody must have not known me,
But didn't like me.

For blooming in the midst of thorns,
for being colorful in a dull world
his angels raging with a hate
Ready to be done with me
because God didn't love me,

it was at age fifteen when i figured it all out,
Age seventeen when i claimed my life
Kissed something beautiful that God didn't love.
Age 21 when i felt a shift in the winds
and became a flame that ignited itself
twisting and turning in a bed of romance.
coming to know love in each season
knowing that, i wasn't a mistake nor anything unspeakable
Because their religion was nothing more than just theirs
And somebody must have lied.



By : Fanelesibonge Nicholus Sibisi

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