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As I lay here

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As I Lay Here.

The profound truth of loss

It's truly unnerving and callous

It stirs memories of bliss and glory

Arouses hidden passions and desire

Create unknown rations of cataclysmic pain

Sets forth a tsunami of raw emotion to ravage and destroy

Let's loose a paralyzing toxin that drives depression

As I realize the profound truth of loss

I remember our heated fights

And passionate makeup sex

I remember the crippling fear we felt when we realized we were meant to be

Never did I imagine it would become reality

The soft feel of your warm rosy cheeks

Turned ice cold and rock hard

The bubbling life of your hearty laugh

Forever silenced, only an echo in reality

The wonder of your ever optimistic eyes

Forever gone from me, living only in memories

As I lay here today

Willing the darkness to consume me... to rescue my tortured soul

I dare let loose a smile, the promise of death finally near

"More than life itself"

A promise I will fulfill with my bittersweet end

As I lay here and realize the bitter truth of loss.

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