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A mistake I made
Its amazing how much power there is in just a moment
I betrayed my body, mind and soul
And I crumbled, suffocated for days
My spirit asked to be laid to rest
My entire being shook and held me accountable

It was a temporary moment of insanity that almost killed me
A trigger that I pulled
I’ve been healing from being both the perpetrator and victim
My mind is in a complete flux
Everything collapsing in and out
Like building blocks crumbling, folding
Damaging and grinding while simultaneously
Healing itself

I've Shut down in construction of a protective shield
Trying to keep me together and alive.
My mind and body shall be held captive and protected
Banished from the self-serving need of feeding itself
skin against skin
it was a temporary moment of insanity that almost killed me
And i'm sorry lump... collectively

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